It doesn't get any sadder than when your love becomes your weakness.. What do you do when you suddenly realize you're helpless in the relationship.. Patience becomes your best friend and pain is your shadow.. It sucks when you can't help but cry because all the anger and resentment don't have any other way of coming out.. The most painful part is your anger and resentment isn't towards him but to yourself for being in such a situation...
I Love him.. That hasn't changed.. Unfortunately, something else did.. And I'm not really happy about it.. I guess I just don't want IT.. I cry at stupid and silly things... I don't really know why.. I guess sometimes, I just have nothing else to do.. I'm helpless because now I realize that no matter what he does. it will never be enough for me to leave him...Now matter how stupid and frustrated and whatever he makes me feel... it will never be enough reason.. no matter what i do... I felt this then but now, it's like a cloud hanging over my head that I can't ignore.. i HATE THAT. Most of the time I get irritated at small things but I'm not really angry at him.. I'm angry at myself because I'm allowing all these emotions to get to me..
Don't I make myself clear enough?? Is there really something lacking in our communication no matter how hard we try to fill the gaps??.. Why can't he understand?? Why can't he understand me??
