reality again..

off he goes ...those last few minutes I never want to end.. Those few tears I kept from falling.. that old familiar feeling of bitterness, longing and love all coming at the same time... Again, we're here... We made the most of it, we had fun but reality hit and now we're back to it.. Isn't it funny? you hold on as much as you can.. make as many memories with ever chance you get but when it's over, it all goes down to that one moment..Nothing else matters but that last touch before you let go, the last glance before you turn and that last grasp of breath before you let it sink in..again, you're alone.. No matter how many promises you make and how hard you pretend it doesn't hurt because you know that he'll always be waiting, like you, for the next time you see each other..It's just consolation.. Nothing is certain, nothing is ever really an assurance because anything can happen..and that's what keeps haunting you every minute and every day you don't see him.. It's not trust or the absence of it.. I trust him.. With every feeling I keep... It's fate I don't trust :((

ow sure..

I should've known.. Have you ever felt so stupid expecting something different when you know all the while what will happen? I never ask for anything but understanding.. People look at us and see something different when between us, I get my share of patience and understanding when I'm the one in need of them.. I do every thing as he does.. In our own ways we're fairly even in the relationship, that much I can admit. But sometimes, I just want to feel understood.. That when I'm too hard to handle, he's always gonna be there if just to show me he cares enough to understand.. AFTER ALL, ALL A GIRL ASKS FOR IS THAT..TO BE UNDERSTOOD IN HER MOODS, TANTRUMS, ATTITUDE AND WHATEVER CRAZY THINGS SHE DOES.. 'coz at the end of the day she'll do every thing for that one person who stays no questions asked.. ish... !!!! :( and it felt so great that he was here... So much for a happy goodbye..

everyday

I wake up in the morning and I don't see you here..The first thing in my mind, I wish I'd go back to sleep'coz when I sleep I dream, and I dream of you..It's like you're here and everything seems so true..Baby tell me that you're wishing I was there, too..Coz you're never out of my mind, i'm getting crazy inside and out..without you..I miss you when I'm alone, and I miss you,coz I'm not home.. With you where I'm supposed to be.. I'm here thinking what the hell I'm doing here..Every minute, every second of everyday..I'm wishing I never had to go away.. But well, I'm here and you're there..

can't wait

...Okay, so thanks to AJ I remember i haven't written any blogs for the past n months and well, nothing really happened..well, the semester is almost over... I'm still with him (what's up with that) and well, I'm a little more than a semester away from graduating 2nd year of college.. haha.. Hmmmm.. what to write about... Ohh, and I'm waiting for him.. :) He's on his way and even if I'm kinda mad that doesn't stop my excitement.. Haha.. Gosh I haven't seen him for well, almost a month but it feels like a long long long (not that long) time.. Did anyone feel like this? Like the nearer you get to seeing the person you love, the more you miss them.. It's the anticipation I guess.. Knowing you get to see them again.. Anyway, I don't have any plans yet.. I just want to see him and feel him first..