life happens

..someone told me.. i don't know maybe i read somewhere that you would't feel guilty if you never thought about another person differently in the first place.. I wouldn't say this is confusion...or well, maybe I just won't accept it's confusion :( Why do I have to keep repeating to myself that I love him? that I did nothing wrong.. or doin' rather.. why? doubt? (shit).. maybe im just drunk (haha).. :(